Me fighting with a stump

This is a old fight i have been putting off for a long time, i cut that tree down about 7 years ago and i have not touched it since, well i thought it was time to kick its ass and i did, this stump was swamp oak and was hard as a brick, i hoped it would die but it just got harder.Like so many things i have just stoped and turned my back on well its time to live agine, I gave up on life and just shut down for a long time, just did what i had to only, no fun and did nothing but work, well got my bike back and its time to come out of my shell, going to do some riding and fishing, and just want to spend time with good friends and find better friends, i plan to be me and if people don't like it they know were the door is. But things are good made peace with myself and things between me and my wife are fair since we called it quits, i have got a lot of things done i have put off for a long time, like this stump. got all the wood fixed on the back of the house and work is going good, and every single day i work on becomming a better me, now all i need is time and a good set of arms to hold me sometime and life would be great. Well to all have a wonderful day and treat those women right, you might wake to find them gone...eddie

Time moves on

Been real busy with work and trying to get some much needed house work done, got the new wood on the back of the house now for the paint, got a tranmission to put in sunday and still no time for a beach ride, got to stay busy and work on life. I found this on a site i go to and thought it fit me well, lost my diamond while i was out looking at stones, so whats new in the world, was sorry to hear about baron passing away, he had a kind soul i know in my heart he will be missed in the blog world, its hard to say why someone so young left so early in life guess the lord knows why. I have been doing alot of looking at life and know in my mind that the place i have made for myself will only help me right now, i have alot to do on me and every day i work on letting go of the past, moving on with my life and trying to find peace of mind but all in all i get better every day, i smile and hold no bad feelings inside, this is not were i planed on being in life but will make do with what i have to work with.

I plan to take a week off and just ride when all is paid off and just see what kind of old friends i can find, have lost touch with alot of people and would like to see how they are, maybe even wet a hook and see how the fish are, have quit doing so many thing i enjoy in life. but for right now i am content to be with my kids and just by my self, don't have to please anyone but me , and my cats and dogs, I lay my head down every night and i know i did the best i could for the day, and i feel it will only get better, well to all have a wonderful night and be sure to hold the one you love they might not be there when you wake up, best to all, eddie

What now

Well after 15 years of being a husband i now find myself free, and it crossed my mind what do free men do, well i guess i could ride my bike really fast but its to cold, so at 48 i now start a new life, need to work on the body so plan to start working out, really need to stop smoking, but hard to do, not in bad shape but could use a little toning here and there, guess i could cut my hair but i like it long, so won't do that . I guess i will have to think on it a while to see what the old mind comes up with, guess i could chase wild women but that will be way down the road, for right now just plan on working on me and living life, do some fixing up on the house and just see what life is all about, lost love twice and i really don,t see a third time in my life so i will just spend time with me for a while and work on my mobile car service, things i want to do in life i always want to do them with my wife but we never did any thing so now i will do them alone.

I love the beach and walking on it at night, the moon and stars over the water is great, the ships way out there with there lights in the dark are cool, just to go places and to do things will be a change, maybe meet new people and become part of the human chain agine, our beach has many little shops to go threw and all kind of food places so its also nice in the day time. Well any way we shall see what life brings my way and just be happy in the thought that i work on me dayly to become a better person and thats all i can do...eddie

A Day In The Life Of Eddie

The day started off warm , got dressed and drank my coffee, sitting on the porch watching life pass by me, the clouds slowly blew by and the sun shined threw, as i sit there alone thinking about life, out she came, like a beam of light coming into the day she passed by and sit in the chair across from me, as i looked into her sweet green eyes i knew in my heart i had lost the best part of me, but if she can be happy it is worth it, she has been sad for so long, as we sit and talked i felt a calm about myself and work called my name, off i had to go but parts held me up, so worked on a engine and then returned to service trucks , got home at 4pm and then had to do brakes on a car. thought about a ride tonite but was just to tired, sit here now waiting for hot water and thinking about my life and all the turns it has followed, each soul i have touched has left part of it self on me, i have lived and loved, watched children grow, have seen many wonderful things, but the water at night washing over the bow of a ship touched me, it glowed like a green light in the dark, the fish would swim in it and it was just wonderful, words can not really tell it in the right way, you would have had to be there.

Things like that touch me, little things that most people would not care about. A lot of people judge you about your home, or your money, or the way you look, well to me the love of a good woman and the thought that you did the best you could means more to me, we are all human, we all make mistakes, we learn from them if we are smart, well water is hot so let me go wash the dirt of another day off, i lay down tonite knowing inside myself i did the best i could today....eddie

A new day

Well the day started early and had to go service trucks, but all is going well, starting to get back in to life and look at things in a different light, i feel in a way i have lifted a weight off my head by letting go of the past, now i can only do the best i can and for those who think so low of me, well too bad you may think i'am a peace of shit but at least i took care of the things i had too and did not run away, made sure i worked and took care of my kids and stayed here when most people would have run a long time of go, but enought with that shit it is not worth the time to think about it. Right now at this point in time i feel good about myself and thats all i can do, work is good and my mind feels better all the time, i work on me dayly and that is a good thing, I am now taking time to see the world around me and to see things i never took time to see, I have lived in a please everyone but my self world for so long that i forgot about the most important things in life.

I love doing things for my kids and my friends, like fixing bikes and just taking time to smell a rose, or walk threw the grass with my shoes off, or just to smile at people, i look forward to the summer and riding my bike agine or just sitting on the beach, well let me go things call me away from the keys, to all have a wonderful day and smile..eddie

Happy day

Well today was long but good, got the fuel pump in at last, 94 firebirds suck if you have to drop the gas tank, but it is doneeeee. Things are good and each day gets better, lots of work and happy with the way i'am working on me, starting to feel i just might make myself happy in life, got to do head gaskets on a dodge in the morning and then a motor in a toyota, so no time to ride but like the thought of it. weekend will be fleet service and then who knows, maybe the moon, to all have a great nite and be happyyyyyyyyyyyyy...

Baby's Back

This is my baby, after two years she is going to be mine agine, the guy i sold it to got a new one and wants to make a great deal on it, i took it out today to see how she rides and after a few adjustments she flew like the wind, i really needed a good ride and at 130 miles per hour it really clears the mind,the faster i went the better i felt, i was free to fly. My son in law did the paint and when i sold it it put tears in my eyes, but she is home now so after a fast ride and the sun in my face and the wind by my side i felt a calm in me, very nice, made me feel like a king flying down the road going so fast that i could not count the light poles, she is a 1100 honda sabra and she is one of a kind, well got to go things to do roads to ride, be good and have a wonderful nite...

A Happy Me

This was me so many years ago with my sister at easter, the little girl is my oldest one who is 27 now, at this point in my life i had such fun in life, did things ,went places, had cook outs and i knew who i was and what i wanted, hated the ground my X wife walked on but was content with me. I had friends that i spent time with, people who really cared about me, now i can count the people i trust with my heart on 1 finger, the world has changed, for the worst, it is now the i only care for myself people in it, it is sad to think about at times but i sware it did not used to be that way. At this point in my life i just feel used up and tired, tired if loving people and caring and never having it retured, my kids love me but noone else in life. I know tons of people but none of them are like true friends they take what they need and move on, what happen to the world to make it this way, were did all the happy people go.

I sit back and look at my life and would not change the people i have touched in life because i carry a little bit of them all in me, and most of my life i have done well, and had many happy days. I guess things have went down hill the past 5 years, i should have done many things but just did not do it, well after many sleepless nites i can tell you that it was a fucked up way to look at life and i should have done things better just for me so i could say i tryed but really i did nothing to change things, and things got worst and now look how fucked up things are. I miss so many things in life but i miss brats touch and careing ways and can only blame myself. Brat leaves for a weeks trip tuesday and i look forward to the time to think about things by my self, 7 days to decide what i want in life, were i want to be. Well i can only hope she finds what she needs in life, have worked on me in a lot of ways and feel i 'am working in the right way for me, for fifthteen years i have been with one woman and have never wanted to be any were else, maybe its time for a change, nite to all, be happy ....eddie

Me

This is my card, it shows what i feel like most of the time, two dragons pulling two ways, my mind goes two ways fighting for which way would be better for me, the war never ends but eases with time and time has come for the real eddie to please stand up. Wanted to post and say hi to every one, will be back soon....me

Happy birthday brat

Happy birthday my dear brat and i hope many more for you, another year to look forward to, may all your wishes come true my love....eddie

good day

Well today was a good day, worked hard and got a lot done so thats all i can ask for now. Did brakes and tune up on a truck, just trying to make do with what i have, got to do service at mathews sunday, got to keep those trucks running but i like it. working on me a lot and trying to just live in this one moment in time, letting go of all the past and really don't care about what happens in the future right now, just one day at a time and it seems to work for now. things change in life and nothing last forever but we carry on in any way we can. i look back on all the things in my life and i still smile. i love me and the things i do and that will keep getting better, i miss the things and people i have lost but each one of them have touched me in some way that i like. Still looking for a car to do but they are hard to come by here in fl, but the hunt goes on, i want a 69 charger and a new charger and then strip the new one and put every thing in the old one. I think that would be cool as hell, we shall see. but things are good with me and thats a first for a long time, mind and heart are calming down and i see that the world will still turn and move on. Also would like to think all the wonderful people that have been coming here and giving me support and helpful advice(thinks) well let me run for the night, night to all and sleep well and warm..